No more lipstick

I just realized, while drinking a cup of my favorite coffee, that I no longer wear lipstick. I don't miss it at all. I think it really just dries out my lips anyways. In thinking, though, about when this change occurred, I realized a lot of things changed when I had Lily. I no longer want to be the main driver...unfortunately for Alfred, that means he has to drive everywhere now. That used to be my spot, the drivers seat. Pretty much a true statement for everything in my life. But I've given that spot up to those that can help me the most now. I used to need that control, now I am actively giving some control to other people in order to maintain balance. I like it! I never thought I'd be that kind of Mom (well, I guess I never really thought about the Mom I'd be at all!). Back to lipstick...I love to kiss my kids. I think they are going to grow up and be those kids that are perpetually saying "Mooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmm". I can't leave that kind of evidence on their cheeks, especially as they get older, only in their hearts. Hence, no more lipstick.